’cause it’s about to get rough for you

Wow. It’s been light-years since I last posted! I know I promised to update with some incredibly interesting stuff but I haven’t had the inspiration, time and energy to do so and I apologise for that.

Anyhow, I’m here to bring you an amazing post! So sit back, relax and enjoy.

A quick update on what I’ve been doing… Went for red camp last week from tuesday to thursday and it was really awesome! All the knowledge about the various courses NP’s got to offer… I feel so much ready for poly life now.

Kudos to NP for that!

 Red camp’s one of the best camp I’ve been to because, no.1, the food was T.E.R.R.I.FI.C and the best part of it all? It’s free. No.2, the activities lined up for us were interesting and we did not have to walk like crazy in the sweltering heat because they even chartered buses that would drive us around the entire campus!

And to think I regretted signing up for the camp the day before it commenced. Now I’m all love and no hate. Hah!

I know I promised pictures but I’m honestly too lazy to upload any here. They are all on facebook and if you’d like to see them, you can always check them out there. Sorryyyyyy don’t mind the lazy girl.

Moving on!

Prom night was on Friday… It was another fun night! Everyone looked so different in a good way. But I have to say the activities were quite dull.

They should have just hired Kumar or some comedian to do a stand-up comedy instead of making us do stupid stunts like STANDING ON THE FREAKING CHAIR. Zzz how “innovative” is that! I mean, c’mon, we were all dressed to the nines and there the host was getting us to do all kinds of ridiculous things!

However, not wanting to be a wet blanket there, we were all supportive and we did whatever the host told us to. So… There.

And… After a whole week of intense partying, playing and having fun, I fell sick.

I know, you must be going “Aha! Stupid fool!”. YES I know that well enough.

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Sometimes I don’t know what you want me to do. It’s like whatever I do, or not, you’d see it as something you can’t handle, or something that’s hurtful. I don’t know if it’s just me that you’re out to go against or you feel all the things you said because your words and actions do not match.

They repel like two north/south poles and I am totally whacked out with this whole crazy situation. You said you didn’t need someone with reasons or excuses but someone who would say sorry and be good again.

And that’s exactly what I did but I don’t see you doing what you said you would. It’s funny how I’m the only one trying to make things work here when you were the one who wanted to get it over because you were tired of me defending myself.

I honestly don’t get what you are thinking/feeling etc. All I ever wanted was for you to be honest with me. I never expected anything more. All I wanted was someone who would be there for me. If it was too much to ask, I shouldn’t have gone so deep in the first place, and I’m sorry I did.

Because when the push comes to the shove, I’m the one that’s feeling maligned and hurt.

I’m sorry for the things I’ve done too, but it takes two to get the job done. And the band is here for a mission, for a calling. If you can’t even support me with that and you claim to love me, then I don’t think you know the meaning of love.

Anyhow, I still love you and I will still wait. Because I believe everything happens for a reason and God does not want animosity between us.

So if you ever read this, I want you to know, I haven’t given up on us.

“Therefore, rid yourselves of all malice and all deceit, hypocrisy, envy, and slander of every kind. Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation, now that you have tasted that the Lord is good.”